Back. I just can't bear to part with my beloved blog.

I cried. I isolated. Yes, I was emotionally unstable. Didn't have much sincere concerns. It was an awful sight I know. How embarrassing. I'll put it aside.

Anw. Learning journey was alright lah. We had Youth Mission for the two days. A worthwhile experience. It was really fun nd enjoyable, especially with the speakers with their entertaining nd hilarious jokes. Lol. It was lame nd al, but great ya ! I liked the last session, whereby we were supposed to write messages for friends. It was rather sweet. I miss denyse-.

We've gotten back al our scripts alr. I dropped a hell lot for my used-to-be best subjects, while the used-to-be lousiest subjects improved. The results are below, not that I'm proud of it, but because it's super horrible : (Amath was moderated nd Chinese is taken from the Os)

English - C5
Chinese - B3
Emath - B4
Amath - B4
Combined Physics - A2
Combined Biology - E8
Pure Chemistry - C6
Geography Elective - Ugrade (?)
Social Studies - C6

Therefore, my L1R5 is like a fucking 29 nd L1R4 is a fucking 25. I can't go anywhere. I want to try one last tym to do better for the Os, hopefully.

Lunched with the usuals at Whitesands on Friday. We unfortunately met into the whole group of retarhds. They were shouting al the way from the third level, making everyone look towards their direction. Big attention-seeking gang ? Like oh, we're so scared ? Ha ha. You want to embarrass my friend, it pissed me off like shiet, so you got it back. Must have traumatised you guys to shut up. We can't stand that particular girl's face either. For goodness sake, don't act beng or lian when u're not lah ? It effing irritated us. Such a turnoff.

Supposed to be studying last night. But Jaslyn nd I only completed our Biology tutorial questions by 11pm ahah. Not productive. We ate m&ms, tuna with biscuit, nd twiggies ! I even had beef MOS riceburger when I went home. Sheesh, ate a lot.

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Lydia. Maybe u can upload somewhere ? Oh. What's so scary. Journal ? It IS fun. Hee.
Kai. Ahaha alrights. Thnks.
Melody. Okays no problem (:
Agnes. Haha don't worry everything's fine now. Thnks for that. Nd yeap, I missed you too.

Was out the whole day with Geraldine nd Jaslyn ! A threesome again, but it wasn't too bad. We had a reaallyyy fun time splashing about at downtown's WWW right ? Heehee. I turned darker once more. Oh wells. The Tsunami, Shiok River, Ulah-la, Sky Rider nd Jacuzzi. Jaslyn was nice enough to let us pair up for paddling while she sat alone ! Silly her always gets 'bullied' in some rides ? Hahah.

Met new people nd al. They were quite a funny bunch of crew. We even had the KFC meals as well as ice creams nd pancakes (I even had more food when I went home). D'Marquee was interesting ! They're having like this megasale of MPH books nd ToysRus toys for kids. ONE LOVE, yes geraldine ? Lol. So many inside jokes.

We love WWW ! Shall go back there again soon.
Signing off, with my initial "N". Ahahahh.
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herTORMENTED heart
8:28 AM

Melody. Can you find them now ? Haha.
Beefy. Let's have another gathering after the Os alright ? Then you can bbq more chicken wings.
Lydia. Haha the ones you have from ECP ? Oh I've uploaded mine alr.
Shir. Then I'm happy for you (:
Charzzy. You're most welcome, my friend !
Geraldine. Yeap, kindie surprise ahah. How's the puzzle ?
Kai. Lol, saw your entry alr. Oh my tiann lah ?

I'll be MIA for a short while. You al won't miss me I know.

To know more about the Learning Journey we had yesterday, go to geraldine's or beefy's blog. I don't have the mood to blog everything out. I'll still post up pictures in the Bubbleshare anw. Going to arrange the pictures in the albums too.

Gotten back results for 5 subjects alr. Rejoice, Natalie failed nd she didn't expect it. You are must be super happy right. Ha ha.

I don't know what to do now. Nobody truly cares (Well, maybe the teachers do, but friends are doubtful). Don't ever come to me saying "Cheer up lah nat, don't think so much" etc. Then the next moment you al turn away nd pretend nothing happened. Nd if you were to put yourself in my shoe, how would you feel ? It's so fucking dumb.

My eyes hurt so much. My heads spinning.
I'm very tired. I so very am. Goodbye for now.

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I forgotten to bring home the piglet biscuit Shir gave me. Sigh. What did you write ? I haven't seen for myself. Oh wells.
Dad's cooking dinner for the family tonight. He's a good cook btw.
I don't know how to bring myself to tell them the horrendous results. I really did study-.
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herTORMENTED heart
5:32 PM

Hey al. I'm bacckkk, armed with photos nd videos to full blast !

22nd September. Met up with Shir first to put our things down at the chalet, pass the key to the rest, nd left for town to do our hair with Jeanette nd Ying. It turned out what to be as not what I wanted, oh wells. Ran all the way to the mrt station since we were running out of time. It brought about many stares nd glances from passerbys, my hair was even referred to as goldilocks by three immature secondary school boys from a well-known school ? Like hello. Can't you see that I'm rushing for the 'big' night nd my hair is NOT gold. Fuck. The ride back to the chalet was super funny. We were the only 2 passengers, yet we standing on the bus ! Ahahah. Did our makeups nd stuff, then headed off.

So we've finally graduated after these 4 years together in SAC. It seems so fast. The memories, the times we had will be truly cherished. Yes ? This year's graduation night was held in Ite Simei. Was better than I thought, we had the auditorium. Oh my tiann ? I shook hands with Mrs Joseph nd she took a picture with me. Ha ha. Yeap, going up on stage makes me nervous, I was fooling around backstage, that even Mr Ng was looking. Lol. Nd the speeches made were really meaningful, the words tell. Aww, the slideshow wasn't very good. Anw. Everyone looked pretty nd beautiful on this very day ! Took many many pictures with the girls. Sadly, I didn't have the chance to take one with Denyse nd some others. Clarissa (junior) came over to pass me ferrero rochers, thnks to the sweet girl ! Oh the buffet was not really er, good. But we ate our dimsums haha. The sec3s who served us food were very friendly, so I took a picture of them as well. Heehee ! That's about all to summarise everything up.

Cabbed back to the chalet with them. Our feets hurt badly. We had Macs for supper while watching tv. Pillow fights. Was too tired that we just washed up, changed nd plopped into bed. Lol. Jayne brought along red wine ! We had a hard time prying out the cork from the bottle. Woke up next morning feeling so hyper. AHAHAH, sort of went high ! I was looking forward to the chalet more than graduation night I guess. We went out to have breakfast together at Whitesands' Yakun, after which Beefy nd Ying joined us at the supermarket to get more food etc. I left for home to upload the pictures to my laptop, nd dad drove me down to another supermarket to get barbeque materials. He made for us the chickens. Yay !

Went back to the chalet to meet them nd lazed around while waiting for the evening. Cam-whored group photos etc. Carmen, Sheryl, Sam nd Charzzy came soon after. We prepared the food, whereas Beefy, Jeanette, Jayne nd Melody were the barbeque-ers ! They made yummy food for us. I think the fish with cheese was a reaalllyy good creation. Hahas. Got high again, with all the wine nd jollyshandys (no wait it doesn't make me drunk). Some left around 7 to 9pm, so the rest decided to take funny pictures with the party masks nd lightsticks again. Oh we have this green tea ad caught on video too ! Super hilarious. I'm the director, with Jeanette, Geraldine, Shir nd Beefy featured ! Loll. Had so much food we could almost burst ? Even ice-cream nd fruits to finish up. Only four of us stayed over on Saturday night, we knocked out pretty fast I suppose. Jaslyn nd Jayne came over the next morning to eat nd pack up with us. Checked out at around 11.10am nd left for home. Slept till 7pm ! Goodness me.

Alright. I'll end it off here for now. I'm pleased with my Service Award nd the testimony given. A great weekend has ended, it was fab !
P.s For videos nd pictures, go to my youtube nd bubbleshare on the leftside navigations. Too lazy to put it up here. Hee.

Lydia. I'll share my pictures with you ! Surrender yours lol.
Denyse. Haha really ? Thnks (: Oh man I want to take a picture with you !
Melody. You're most welcome ! The hotdog fun lol.
Angela. Haha thnks. You were a very pretty one too !
Kim. Sure babe ! I hope it's okay. Loves.
Ying. Yo back.

herTORMENTED heart
8:28 PM

OH I'M BLOGGING AGAIN HAHAHA.

Was late to school this morning since I had to rush through the slideshows. Dad sent me there, but due to the super heavy traffic jam up to 7.20am, I had to report late ! Sheesh. Got caught for skirt nd socks, they even wanted to question about those gerberias (?). I won't even let them get hold of it lah, they're for Kim ! Right, Geraldine ? Ahahs.

So yes, happy SWEET 16 dearest kimmie babe !

Got back our SS papers today. Was so effing demoralising please. I dropped 3 grades down to a C6. Ms ------- --- can be so horrible nd strict. Damn her. My structured was quite alright. But because of her marking scheme for the source-base, my marks were pulled down badly. I'm like 130th in the level ! Goodness me.

Anw. Shir came over this evening to do our nails. It took hours I tell you. French manicure can be such a headache. She left after that, while I rushed to pack some stuff to dump at the chalet. Marmi drove me over to meet the usuals. Sorry for making you guys wait. Hung up our dresses, shove our shoeboxes into the closet nd the food into the fridge. We're at block A ! The 2 rooms were pretty alright I guess. No, it brought back memories-. We'll see how it goes. There were guys barbequeing right outside our doors ! Chicken wings to share ? Lol. Went home after.

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I was awoken by sister at 6.09am. Omfg. She thought I have school or something. I can't get back to sleep so I'm here blogging once more. Someone switched off my laptop last night, so I'm not sure if anyone was msn-ing me ! Haha. Smsed replies to Kai nd Shir. She's also awake alr! Hahahah. Maybe I'll redo my nails. Okay..

Back again. It's now 8am. 1 nd a half more hours till I get out of the house. I should start preparing more stuff to bring over to the chalet later. Mahjong set, hfone charger, toiletries, extra clothes for sleepover. It's like I'm more excited for the chalet rather than the graduation night at ITE Simei. Going to be a hectic day for us all ! Will blog again very soon, with pictures !

I'm so afraid for the slideshow. Sigh.
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Kai. Yes, it's nice. Ahahah.
Lydia. Nah, it's your own hardwork that's paid off, little girl ! Heehee. Don't be too sad about the Hawaii thing okays ? It should be alright.
Jeanette. HAHA ! Shhh.

herTORMENTED heart
11:32 PM

This would probably be the last entry for this week, until I get home on Sunday evening. HEEHEE.

Anw. Had to cab down to school today with Jayne since we woke up late, lol. The fare was madness I tell you, surcharge nd al. The social ettiquette talk for our class was pretty interesting, though I was falling asleep at some point of time. So the lady made me show the class on how to handle a cup of tea/coffee the correct way. Dang. Was called out with Kim due to the graduation slideshow thing. The teacher-in-charge found faults with it. We didn't get to eat our recess lah.

1) The amount of time of the presentation is quite short.
2) Some of the pictures resolution are too blurred if enlarged on the screen of the auditorium.
3) Must add more slides n captions.
4) No music to go with it as they are not from original CDs.
5) 'Windows Movie Maker' might not work on the computer which is going to be used at ITE.
6) If al these still problematic, our class slideshow will be removed. We'll have to go without one.

Like hello ? Who was the one who told me the slides were too slow at first. Nd the pictures are blurred because of the effects yanno. What's wrong with downloaded songs for the picture video ? It's just a presentation for goodness sake. Oh nd I don't think ITE's computers are so lousy that there's no 'Windows Movie Maker' right ? Sheesh. What rotten luck. We have to redo the whole thing al over again ! There goes another sleepness night. Good luck to three of us, Geraldine, Kim nd I.

I lost my gold 'PC monitor' badge this morning. Effing saddening lah. Actually, it made my mood worse. Friends tried to help me find it everywhere, but to no avail. As if the student who found it won't want to keep it for herself. So there goes. It meant so much, I wanted to keep it as a memoir. But now I'll just have to presume that : Natalie's stripped of from her class committee role ? Sigh.

Look ! Nice photo of 4/8's class committee, eh ? Some are wacky (like Kim, Aynn nd Fel), funny (Peiwen nd Shir) while some just couldn't be bothered (oh us ?). Ehehehh. Where's her wide smile ? ): No more.

Graduation night rehearsal in the afternoon was pretty funny nd amusing, since Mr Hamzah joked alot. Lol. We were like laughing our heads off ! So yeap. Middle section are for those VIPs, guests, parents as well as student leaders receiving 'Merit' nd front sections would be some others with 'Appreciation'. I'm in the 7th last row (according to classes) with Jayne nd Xue er, N29 left, under 'Service'. Nd I don't see any big difference between 'Service' nd just 'Testimonial', although the latter is said to be just a normal one. How retarhded.

Ended at 4pm. Geraldine nd I went to Whitesands to get some stuff. We bought dinner home too ! Ahahah. Yummy noodles nd chicken from Munchhouse. Met ahkor at the bus stop, he's going out I suppose. Dad was alr home with cousin nd sister. I'm not sure if he's going to cook dinner for me. Oh myy.

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I'm still waiting for the two to come online nd help me out ! Lol. Patience (:
* GERALDINE ND KIM HURRY HURRY !
What's with al the last minute changes again ? It's not only once. Fucked up lah.
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Charzzy. Yes, celebrate ! But not for long, ahahs.
Kai. Alrights, hahaha I'm trying.
Lydia. Don't be so sad ! Must be optimistic ya ? Smile girl, good luck.

herTORMENTED heart
6:19 PM

I saw the notice : "Blogger will be down for maintenance tomorrow for 15 minutes starting at 4pm (Pacific Time)." Oh wells.

No dinner surprisingly. Not a problem. I'm so tired. So very tired. My throats hurting again.

School was at 10am instead. Had Macs in the early morning with the usual at Whitesands before taking the bus. Last prelim paper today, though I had many careless mistakes. The plans for the chalet went out of hand. I can't stand people who give last minute notices. I still want the supper that night, Simpang bedok ? Yay. Jaslyn, Geraldine nd I went town together to complete the list for graduation night. Pedicure, has not been settled yet. There's other stuff I want to get ? Like the Revoltage tee, nd the belt I found at long last. Ate at Cine's Kobayashi. Trained home by evening.

I don't even want to think about what had happened. It made me traumatised nd cry.
Fuck you.

There wasn't, when I needed someone for security nd reliance. Then I wouldn't be harmed.

Angela. Nah, don't say that ya. Haha.
Geraldine. Yeap ! We must have fun nd eat our fill. Heh. Thnks for teaching me new words btw. Nd hey, I'm not a potato !
Lydia. Woahh. That is very high. Lol. But like they say, nothing is impossible ya ? Silly girl, you won't fail al yanno ? Hahas.
Kai. No lah. It's not ugly ! Thnks for it. I know I'm wonderful. HEE.
Kimberly. Hey kim ! I'll miss sitting infront of you too (:

herTORMENTED heart
8:27 PM

This was how I did my studying yesterday. HAHAHA. So not condusive.

Amath ppr2 today was horrendous ! It was done so badly I don't have confidence in passing the subject for overall. But I was quite happy with the Trigonometry nd Matrices questions, I could do most of them I suppose. The 'best' part was not even attempting question 11, a whole 12 marks gone like that. Everyone at least tried so that there is a possibility for them to get some marks or so. Wtf ? Super effed up. What about me ? I skipped the question. I calculated around 34 marks gone out of 80. I'm so angry with myself. Fine. It's over with. Tomorrow's the last paper, Physics/Biology MCQ.

Had the 'Battle of Boynes 2' with Agnes. HAHA it was funny. We crushed up paper balls to throw at one another after the collection of scripts. It flew around in different directions around us. Lol. Lunched with the usuals at Whitesands. We went to the park as well.

We have career guidance as well as lessons for the next two days, then would be graduation night. Wow, ITE Simei. Hurr. Take many many pictures pretty please ! I'm more looking forward to the chalet nd barbeque instead. (Please get info from me soon alright). Goodbye Prelims, but welcome results, very soon. Sheesh. This year passed very quickly, eh ? In just a few more months, after the Olevels, I'm out of this damn school. I can't wait.



Harleys are all-time favourites. Video courtesy (?) from Kai. Ehehehhehs. I love black bikes. But today I saw one Honda model which was white nd gold. Pretty !

Anw. Kai kai drew the above as a similar picture as my display picture on Msn. Effing cute lah. Ahahahah. Xie xie ni. Here's one in return for you then :

Taaa-daaahhh ! (Sorry I know its awful)

Video Music Awards was awesome. Panic ! At the Disco performed well, so did others like Shakira nd Christina. HOTT. Mcr was performing at the 70th level, goodness like how cool. Heh. Another repeat of Vma 2006 is on Wednesday, September 20th at 3pm on MTV. Be sure to catch it if you haven't. Haha.

Beefy. You're most welcome ! Thnks for finding mine interesting too. Haha.
Agnes. Thnks for the encouragement ya. So how ? The paper ball fight. AHAHAH.
Lydia. Haha ! Funny little girl. I'm going to rewrite a new one to update I suppose. Why so high expectations ?
Kai. I will be happy. Nd I will threaten you with those photos too. Don't you dare ! Hahah.
Angela. SUPERR lol. But don't you worry, you're still pretty. Hee.
Charzzy. You're back ! Yeap. Haha. Now's one more to go ! Good luck my friend (:

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Oh did I say. I saw a uniquely pink car. A wedding car at church ! Hee. It was so sweet please. I took a shot of it.

Breakfast was hotdog bread. Lunch was lontong nd chicken wing nd ice cream today. Even while blogging, I can munch on my delifrance pastry nd Tapioca chips. I'm still greedy for maggie mee. Should I ?
Oh dad's buying me a burger. My goodness ! How can I even lose weight in time for graduation night like this ? Sigh. Smack me lah. My throat's hurting now.
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50 mins more nd I'll have to leave home to meet the usuals for breakfast then school. Heehee ! I've overslept for the longest time today. Couldn't wake up. There's not enough time to study. Oh wells. I'll pray hard for this last paper.
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herTORMENTED heart
7:02 PM

WARNING :
Bad mood. I may attitude.
But if you're nice to me, then no worries.
I don't have the motivation to study. So poof, there goes my Saturday not doing anything.

There's tuition today. Probably won't help my ppr2 on Monday. It's useless. Trigonometry, Relative Velocity, Differentiation, Integration etc. I've got problems with al.

Beefy's (Genevieve) blog layout is so pretty ! I like reading her entries too. Yes, what's with the silly school, shouldn't graduation be in the Mandarin hotel nd prom held in ITE Simei instead, nd not the other way round ? Moreover, it should al be after the Olevels, the heavy burden. Now everyone's pimples are appearing lah. Goodness me. Tsk tsk. Horrible planning.

I just remembered. Miss VIP ahahah. Super fun.

Kai. Don't laugh too much ah. Lol. Thnks.
Cindy. Hurry hurry. I'm waiting !
Ying. Haha, but you still did in the end.
Agnes. Be prepared alrights ! Victory is mine, you'll wave your white flag for me, lol. You know a song that goes ".. there will be no white flag above my head.." ? Ahah I'll sing to you. I'll try. Nd thnks btw. Smile hor.
Angela. Really ? Hahas ! Nice right ? -BEAAMMS. We both so love hot chocolate. Ehehehs.

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Oh mann. Forgot to publish. It's 10.07am so I've got to rush to Tampines soon. Loves !
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herTORMENTED heart
4:49 AM

Stirred up quite a commotion. Even those who didn't leave any comments or whatsoever, read my blog nd know what was going on. Oh my tiann. Never expected this sort of thing before. Let's just leave it, okay ?

Thursday's prelims. Emath was alright I suppose. But was disheartened later on. I screwed up my Geography. I didn't know we were suppose to pick either Q2 or Q3. I did BOTH. See my big mistake ? No wonder I had so little time to complete the essays, because I did an extra one, so my answers were al short, making no sense. Nd after tuition ended about 4.30pm, I went home to catch up on some sleep. By the time I awoke, it was alr past midnight ! Practised my math, wasting like an hour on each question. Thnks kaikai for your companion nd help yeah. Please don't laugh at me again ah !

Amath nd physics were surprisingly not very demanding as we thought, though there were difficulties. Estimated about 22 marks out of 80 blanked, surely a gone-case for Amath paper. I'd be glad if I passed them both (I didn't prepare anything for Physics you see, just looked through the MYE paper only). Then again, the answers I gave were al so crapped up ? Goodness me. Kim got so stressed (nah, she was just playing) that she broke her ruler into two ! Lol. Agnes nd I had the 'Battle of Boynes' with crushed up papers. Hurr.

Only 2 more days of the prelims. I've to constantly remind myself that I can pull through, sheesh. After the end of prelims, would then be enrichments as well as graduation night, al in the same week. Time to plan for the gathering ! Finally it's the weekends lah ? Went Downtown with the usuals to have our little steamboat sets for lunch. We got ourselves drenched 2 times in the rain ! Once at the school's bus stop, nd then at Pasir Ris. Sent Jayne off before we had a threesome. Hee.

Yes, took pictures (Lazy to post seperately so I did the same as ger's). In the beloved Whitesands, the new scene ; the 'New Orchard Road'. HAHA. Jan was so right about that statement, the mall's still having a renovation change. But new shops are appearing like 'Watts In', which the nearest was in town, at Fareast. We've gotten our earrings today. Ehehehhehs. There's more varieties of food outlets too ! Yummys.

Plopped into bed from evening till close to midnight. I am so very tired. Marmi was the one who woke me up from my beauty sleep. Dang, hahahah. Now I feel so much more awake. I don't even think I had a dream, not a single one for the whole stretch of this week. Kitty cat came to visit our home for milk again. Ahkor told me he always buy nd feed catfood to it al the time. No wonder its so FATT. Ahahs. Look at the maomao :



Shir. Thnks for commenting. Talking to you makes me happy. At least I know someone who'd be there for me. You're my loveliest girl !
Xiaobai. Ehehehhehs. I see you being so vulgar ! Lol. But yeah, thnks anyway my friend ! Oh, what's with that last sentence huh ?
Guanwei. HAHAHA. Bill gate's father ? You very funny lah. Okay thnks for comment, nd hopefully I'll be able to get in there. Heh.
Miss Anonymous. I'm not sure if you're still coming by around this blog, but I shall just leave you a message I suppose. It's alright. I got it al clear now, thnks for the information, nd er, my apologies for the 'threats'. All the best to you too.
Angela. Most probably ? Lol.
Lydia. Yes ! I'm al prepared ahahs. Why so stressed ? Still young, don't worry too much. You said so, better be soon ! Hahas.

Coldplay ; Nd the tears come streaming down your face. When you lose something you that you can't replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste. Could it be worse ? -13Sept.

Yanno what's one of the many favourite sweet things I like ? Taaa-taa-taa-ddaaaahh :

No, it's not the bread. Hahas. It is Cadbury's hot chocolate. Lol. Oh I haven't stirred the drink.

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Cindy came online. Said she misses me ! Hee. Thnks Syy for the song yeap. Going to redo the whole Bubbleshare thing. Then to church ltr, as well as out to Mng with marmi. Oh yays. Anw. Am still waiting to save up for those polka-dotted shoes. I need moneyyy. She told me yesterday that she bought her pretty new heels at 75.90. Wtf ? It's twice my choice.

Her : You know why I buy anot ?
Me : What happen.
Her : I cross the road ah, then one of the heel of the old pair got stuck at the drain thing. Then I want to turn back nd get, but one car went pass nd PRAGG. The shoe like that.
Me : HAHAHAHA.

More updates to the blog. Changed the song as well. I've got the codes for 'Truly Madly Deeply' nd 'Candyshop' as well. AHAHAH.

I went back to sleep. I finally dreamt. Hmm. It was something about us, but I can't seem to rmb-.
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herTORMENTED heart
11:49 PM

Emath ppr2 nd Geography tomorrow. Oh my tiann.

Anw. The aunties at the Munchhouse was looking at my uniform today ? I thought what was wrong. Then she asked the three of us some funny stuff ! Heh. Oh wells. Then, there was this effing cute little girl at the bus interchange. She thought I was a prefect ! Lol. She went : "Mommy, look she's a prefect ! Mommy, how come she bought food too, nd she's going home.." Hahas. Our school uniforms have a tie which is compulsory as dress code.

Dad cooked dinner today. It was simply yummy yums. Ahah. BEEF STEAK -beeaaamms. I was eating like a happy girl. Then I went back to my room. Faced by the pile of notes nd texts. So yeap, I went home SUPER early today ? At about 10.45am. He was at home nd he asked "How come so early come home ? No school ah ?". Lol, you see, my parents don't know I have examinations. Goodness. I was sleeping like a log al the way till the afternoon at 4-5pm ! Trying to focus on studying now, but not productive. Formulas nd processes. It al doesn't seem to get into my head. End here then.

Geraldine. Ahah no thnks, no more curry for now please. Alright, I'm watching you !
Agnes. Yeap. You'll have to turn around nd smile too lah. Haha, okay ?
Chener. Hey ! Lol you take care too ya ? Let's go study again soon for sure, I'll ask this time round. Hahas.
Kai. Yeah, I'm waiting. A few more months.
Shir. Can't help it ? Lol. Help meee again please. Amath !
Anonymous. Passerby ? Appreciate the comment. Er, are you sure about the part you said : "For O levels, your papers are marked by at least 2 distinguished cambridge professors." ? Then how about the MT Olevels, aren't the papers marked by school teachers ? Because that's what my school teacher told us. So I'm not sure. Sorry. Realised my mistakes, but hey, I didn't say I was not going to study. Thnks for dropping by anw, it got me thinking.
Lydia. Yeah you better, little girl ! Heh. Let's chat again soon.

I'm just a stupid kid.
I haven't grown up.
This I admit.

herTORMENTED heart
9:07 PM

HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY KELSEYYY. -12sept

Last night I had 5 instant msg nd 3 smses while I fell asleep. Most went offline alr by then. Dang. Got woken up by the loud msn call ! It was a fortunate thing ? Otherwise I wouldn't even have studied ANYTHING for the next exam. Phews. Pure Chemistry today. I suppose it was quite alright, not too demanding. Just that the mcq options were so close, it was difficult to choose between 2 answers. Sheesh. Did many many careless mistakes nd blanked out on the topic : Macromolecules. You see, I didn't get to read my thick text at al. Sigh. I only did about 3 or 4 hours of studying on this subject, nd depended on the Fys only.

So we had our lunch together again, this tym at Whitesands foodcourt. Shared curry chicken with Jayne. Beamms. I'm trying to diet please, but temptations irrisistable, lol. Met some familiar faces there. We had a race on the fastest Yakult drinker after that, nd I won quickly. Hahas. I even had bubble tea before heading home. I'm bloated, I hope I won't eat too much later on.

Alright. Off to sleep for an hour or so. But I'd be online the whole day again (:

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I slept too long. It's alr 5.35am lah. Going to read my notes nd attempt Tys/Fys if possible. Time is slipping away from my hands. Music for entertainment. Butterfly junk playlist. Thank you.

Although I love to blog, I think I should be spending more time on my studies just for this week. Amath nd Emath needs to be worked on. But now I'm hungry, but there's no dinner. Oh my tiann.

Anw. I somehow don't get why Singapore have to be so education-minded. No high education means low-standard. Like hello ? Isn't talent nd skills more important ? The sciences are understandable. Still, we don't do sales nd communication by using these formulas from Amath nd Emath right ? We don't go like : Hang on, I need to apply my algebra to get your change. Or even worse, differentiation nd integration. Then again, the society is known to be like that, typical. Everyone thinks ITE is bad, it's the worst place. But look, if your electronics spoil or things need to get repaired, u get someone with technical skills nd al. So what if you go university, have al the scholarships nd etc ? You don't even know basics. People have different abilities yanno. Maybe one excel in the sciences, but because of the maths, they have no choice.

Moreover, Olevels we don't get the papers back. What if some teachers who mark the papers are more lenient/strict than others ? There might be some marking mistake as well, who knows. See, this is unfair.

Sorry. I just so hate studying. Maybe the country should develop on the performing arts ? Lol. Must be the stress I'm having. I need some chocolate nd junk food.
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Marmi actually booked the chalet on my birthday. But I told her I have my Os (she don't even know I have exams now what more that sheesh) so she say nevermind, she'd offer up the chalet to ahkor to celebrate his chinese 18th birthday instead (since his english one is on the 12th). Adding that I "don't need to celebrate birthday lor". Wtf lah. I alr know it's not going to be sweet sixteen but you don't have to say that right. I'm trying not to remember the stupid whole birthday thing (deja vu) nd here you added salt to the wound. So I went to ahkor (who was obviously happy himself) nd told him that since he's celebrating on my birthday, why not I have a present. But of course, I was being sarcastic. I only hope that everyone would wish me, with cards too, that would gladly be good enough I guess. Sigh.
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I don't know why. Don't know why. But this tears falled. Shirleen, the world's not black yet. We'll get through it together. I promise.
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Beefy. Your most welcome ! Nd thnks for commenting. Smiles !
Kai. Alright then. It's not my fault okay hahahs.
Lydia. Haha, little girl no alcohol ! I don't mind yeap. I'm a good listener. I still owe you a letter rmb ? Gosh. When you want it. After prelims get it alright !
Shir. Sure you can. I haven't been able to catch up with you. Sms okay ? Don't worry I'll eat it soon. Ahah.

herTORMENTED heart
3:52 PM

10th September. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BEEFY !

I had a long sleep until the afternoon on Sunday. By the time I realised, I've alr missed out church as well as tuition. Continued to laze around, eating my porridge while watching Mtv channel. Then dad played this DVD show ; Crash. It was quite a nice movie I guess. ? Almost made me cry. He went out ltr, so I got restless not knowing what else to do. Then, I happily found this :

Ehehehhehs. Yes ! Vodka Absolut.

Adding it to my drink. This is what happens when I get reaallyyy bored. Who wants some ?

Started with my Emath Tys again, skipped many questions. Then went out for dinner with cousin nd sister, had some talks. Laughed nd cursed about those primary school days. Got home nd marmi made me eat more food. Oh my tiann, stop ! I'm getting super fat now lah. Hai. So I decided to do my Emath Tys to cover al the different topics. Music nd chatting was my companion. I couldn't sleep anw, so I thought I might as well just be nocturnal or something. Busied myself al the way till early morning, then I packed my stuff nd went to prepare for school. Gave a friend his morning call too. Hahas.

So the bad thing's that I almost fell asleep 3 times on my Emath Prelim paper ! Wasted those precious time. Rarrh. I got al my mathematical set except for that compass. ? Nd who knows, a 9-mark question came out for the topic on Loci. Arguibalrejhk ! No choice but to try freehand. Moreover, I counted 11 marks of my paper, left blanked. Gosh. I hope the Emath paper2 would be much better ya ?

Lunched at downtown with the usuals. It's been a long time. Haha.

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It's 3.56pm nd I just got up from my afternoon nap. Outside was like bright morning clouds with the sounds of birds chirpping. The first thing that came to my mind was that it's Tuesday alr : Wait, what time is it ? How come nobody called me up ? So fast morning alr, but I'm still home ! I got my prelims today ! Dont tell me I'm gnna miss it (I so wanted to burst out crying). Only when I looked at my hfone nd saw the msg from Kai kai, I realised it was still Monday afternoon. Yes, silly silly me. Mock nd laugh al you want. I feel like an ass too. This is the third or fourth time I mistook.

Haven't started studying for my Pure Chemistry exam which is on tomorrow. I'll start by 7pm then. Lol. I'm still not sure whether to give up on this subject, or on Amath. Since both are equally er, bad.
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Lydia. Haha, yes little girl. You can tell me about it anytime if you want to share.
Agnes. Hmm, yeap. I suppose so, hahas. See you.
Chener. Heyy, don't worry I'm trying (: You take care too.
Kai. What song is that ? Lol. Oh nd, for making you late for church, sorry !

A special reply to whom-it-may-concern :

Shir. I know, I know. You're trying to tell me that I'm being so silly right. It's already over, but-. I don't know how to tell it to you here. Things are always complicating. Don't feel bad, it'll only make me feel worse. Of course you can make me feel a little better, though not for the heart. Love is al the same, it's the person that makes it different. Thnks for the juicy fruit nd bubble gum. Thnks for being there for me nd with me whenever I need someone. Thnks for not flaring up whenever I turned nasty or showed you attitude. Thnks for understanding me. But, why can't you answer whether you'd be my true friend ? Certainly I would want you to. I want us to be true friends, not just friends, even up till we get out of this damn school. I love you, my bestest girl.

My strawberry lollipop. Unbearable to eat, I kept it.

herTORMENTED heart
1:03 PM

Jon told me about the moon eclipse thing. Wanted to take a look for myself, so I tried to find the moon before 2.05am, but to no avail ! Sigh.

Didn't do much today I guess. Awoke late when dad came home. He brought lunch back for sister nd I, chicken rice ! Ehehehhehs. Watched Mtv channel whole noon till about 3pm ? Then prepared nd al to meet Chener. Omg I was late as usual. So we studied at Macs, then went for dinner at the CS foodcourt (Kimchi fried rice !), after which we headed back to do more studies. Hahas. We had chats as well, she's quite nice afterall. Pretty, sweet lady. Sadly, didn't take any pictures. Lol. I would love to go out with her again. Nd we'll curse the * ! Ahahh.

Decided to walk through the park today. Dark path at night. I was thinking alot. Maybe a little too much that I almost-. Dad left me dinner as well. Oh my tiann. He cooked it al so I'm to appreciate. Ate it for supper.

I don't know. I don't know why. Natalie, you're lying to yourself. Knowing that you cannot forget, but you still put up a false front. Because I don't want others to see me weak.

I don't want to assume, because I might make a mistake. But everything's just so confusing, I think that maybe I did. It's hard to understand. Why al this mess ? I still haven't got my answer. Nd I'm afraid. Can't you see ?

Being single is okay. I have my advantage of having no big commitments. Yet I miss those times tgt.

It wouldn't make a difference anw. If there's a miracle, you would talk to me again. I waited but to no avail. So I loved. You can never tell how much.

School's starting again this Monday. Oh the blues. Tuition's postponed to Thursday, tomorrow there's church nd studying. No one would go to the foodfair nd booksales at Sg Expo with me alr then. I shouldn't have shared about this. Forget it lah, I can go another time after the examinations nd al. I know I'm over-sensitive again.

I wonder where's my true friend ): I reeaallyyy need one. Shir, are you ?

Lydia. Haha, petite in size ! Like a xiao mei (: Well maybe, then we share the same type of feelings. Understood.

Maybe I still love. Because I'm still waiting-.

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"I Cry" - by Shayne Ward

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew
I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard I try
Not to wonder why

I wish I could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl)
I'll never be over you

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If I could have you back tomorrow
If I could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see
You still love me

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
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herTORMENTED heart
11:48 PM

I felt like crying. Haha laugh at me please.

Anw. Swimming with Jaslyn from 1030am till 12pm. Mostly just stood around in the water complaining lol. I was kind of embarrassed, because I've forgotten my skills alr. It's been years since I last entered the pool. Arms ached after that. Showered nd changed, nd realised I've become a blackie. Omfg. Oh we had our Korean cuisine which was super yummy. The service was much better as compared to other places.

Went for Amath tuition, completed paper1 within the 2 hours, which was relatively easy as they said. I supposedly scored 85.5% for it ? I had many careless mistakes though. If only this was my Olevels. Then Jaslyn nd I went to Whitesands to grab some bite ; junk food. Had a pastry, then some Choco-pillows as well as Jollytots. Read magazines in the library, found ourselves a book each too. A long 2-3 hours buried in them, totally engrossed. I like mine ! Yet I've yet to complete reading. Lol. Went home after that.

Need to start on Biology nd Physics at 10pm. I fell asleep even before finding my Biology TYS yesterday. Bahh. Pure Chemistry nd Geography tomorrow perhaps.

Cindy. Haha but of course. More fun next time.
Kai. Not bad right ! Ahahh. Al the enjoyables, thnks.
Lydia. No problem, little girl ! Lol don't mind me calling you that. So we've somehow got similar problems huh ?

herTORMENTED heart
9:22 PM

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The beauty of hers made me envious, I give up. Pretty girls, I can't be compared to. Promise to make no more of such silly mistakes. Laugh, alright I've to look forward now. No worries. I'm stronger than what I seem. Bring it on, I can do it (: Sure thing. Single, nd totally loving it. Still got my friends, eh ? Maybe I really could be a nerd. Cheers.

Family. I'll see the situation when the time comes. Go with the flow, there could be twists nd turns, changes al the time. Friends, they come nd go, only true ones stay. I need not see her alr after I leave school. So I shouldn't bother. That's the way, I'm not going to give a heck about matters in life, being so sensitive.
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It's unfair when 4/7 need not abide the rules of being locked out of the module class. I don't think they need to attend it anw. I can't stand their stupid complains. Some of our 4/8 girls couldn't find any seats so they left the class instead. Wtf lah. We are at a disadvantage. Nd I still don't get what it means by 'binary compounds'. Anw, I passed the MCQ for Pure Chemistry Mocks. That's quite a happy thing to know.

I know my mood's bad. It's getting way worse now. Don't push me to my limits. Don't make things difficult for everyone. Or I'll hate you even more. Stop the pretence, it's getting us effing annoyed.

Left school with Jaslyn, since Jayne's somewhere with her significant other. Lol. We walked around Tampines, ate at KFC, then went to our usual Whitesands. Coming down the bus, I didn't look at where I was going. The next thing I know, I was lying flat on the ground alr ! Omfg it was way embarrassing. The aunties got a shock nd I myself was wondering what I was doing. It was somehow rather a slow action ? AHAHA. Jaslyn was so mean to laugh at me then ! Well, my leg suffered abrasions from the cemented floor. I'm effing sad lahh. Sigh. It's an awful sight now, hurts.

Read magazines in the library, then walked a distance to Downtown's foodcourt for early dinner. The varieties there makes us drool, what's more, the prices are reasonable. I'm craving for the Korean cuisine for tomorrow's dinner, BIBIMBAP or SABA FISH SET. I've done with reading up the whole of the Biology guidebook. Now it's time for me to attempt FYS/TYS later in the midnight ! Dad bought me a filet-0 burger from Macs for supper too. Yummys please. I've been greedy with food nowadays.

I still have the Maths, Physics, Pure Chemistry nd Geography to study. Don't think I'd be going for tomorrow's extra lesson. Swimming with Jaslyn instead, hopefully. Then there's Amath tuition as well. I don't think I have enough time to complete studies in this way. So yeap, here's the quiz Lydia made me do, to end off my entry then.

1.Full name: Natalie Erika Lai Yu Wen
2. Name backwards: Eilatan
3. Were you named after someone?: I'm not sure
4. Meaning of name: Born on Christmas
5. Nickname: Nat
6. Screen name: Naat
7. D.O.B: 24 October 1990
8. Place of birth: Singapore , Mount Elizabeth
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current location: My bedroom
11. Star sign: Scorpio
12. Religion: Roman catholic
13. Height: 157cm or so
14. Weight: Heavy
15. Shoe size: 38/8/6
16. Hair color: Dark brown
17. Eye color: Dark brown
18. Who do you look like: Marmi's eyes but more resemblance of Dad
19. Innie or outtie: Huh ?
20. Lefty or righty: Righty
21. Gay, straight, bi or others: Straight
22. Best friends: Aren't always the best
23. Best friends you trust most: Might not be the closest
24. Favourite pals: Jaslyn, Shir, Jayne, Cindy (just to name a few)
25. Best friend of opposite sex: Not yet
26. Best buddies: What's the difference ?
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: Currently no
28. Crush: Secret
29. Parents: Doing fine I suppose
30. Worst Enemy: It is obvious I detest someone
31. Favourite online guy: *secret* Oh ! Nd Kai kai too
32. Favourite online girl: None
33. Craziest friend: Cindy
34. Advice friend: Shir
35. Loudest friend: Syy
36. Person you cry with: Jaslyn, Shir
37. Person you laugh with: Everyone actually
38. Any sisters: Cassandra
39. Any brothers: Benjamin, Guanwei da ge, Jon
40. Any pets: No more
41. Any disease: No
42. Pager: It's so cliche
43. Personal phone line: Handphone
44. Cell phone: Nokia
45. Lava Lamp: Don't have
46. Pool or hot tub: Hot tub
47. A car: I want a black one in the future
48. Your personality: Has two sides
49. Driving: Not yet of age for licence application
51. Room: By myself
52. Whats missing: I don't know myself
53. School: SAC
54. Bed: On the floor
55. Relationship with parents: Okay
56. Believe in yourself: Sometimes
57. Believe in love at first sight: No comments alr
58. Good listener: Yes
59. Get along well with parents: It depends lah
60. Save e-mail convos: No
61. Pray: Yes
62. Believe in reincarnation: No
63. Make fun of people: Haha why not ?
64. Like to talk on the phone: Sometimes
65. Want to get married: In my late 20s
66. Like to drive: Yes
67. Motion Sickness: Not so
68. Eat stem of broccoli: Yes
69. Eat chicken with fork: Yes
70. Dream in color: Sure thing
71. Type with your fingers on home role: Huh ?
72. Sleep with stuff animals: No
73. Next to you: Yeap
74. On the walls of your room: Painted purple
75. On your mousepad: Laptop no mousepad
76. Dream car: Sleek black
77. Dream date: Dinner at posh restaurant with a bouquet of champagne red roses, followed by a quiet walk down the esplanade park
78. Dream honeymoon: To Paris or Korea
79. Dream husband or wife: Ahahahah
80. Bedtime: Not fixed
81. Under your bed: Floor
82. Single most important question: Where we going to eat ?
83. Bad time of the day: Mornings
84. Your worst fear: Death
85. The weather is: Cool
86. Time: 10.06pm
87. Date: 7 September 2006
88. Best trick did on someone: Forgotten
89. Theme song: ?
90. Hardest thing about growing up: I can't catch up
91. Funniest experience: Lots
92. Scariest experience: Err
93. Silliest thing you have ever said: My noodles can grow !
94. Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: None
95. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: Eating so much
96. Worst feeling: It's difficult to express
97. Best feeling in the world: To be loved
98. AND NOW, THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!! CHOOSE FIVE TO DO THE QUIZ:
Anyone will to do it then

The end.

Kai. Haha, it's nothing alright.
Lydia. Okay done it alr (:

herTORMENTED heart
9:42 PM

Frozen tears fall once again-.

It was clear that I was showing the second image of me today. So pessimistic. Met Cindy at noon to study Amath till evening. Bought snacks nd a huge cookie to munch on. Seems like I haven't started on any other subjects yet, nd there's only 4 more days. We went home by evening. Then, cooked myself a helping of carrot cake, as well as hotdog, ham, nd egg with bread. I'm eating more than I can take. When graduation night comes, my dress will burst. The kitchen was in a mess by the end of they day, so I had to clean everything up.

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Shirleen can I tell you. How this feeling torments me. I don't feel like talking much anymore. I don't know what to do, nd I don't want to know either. Contradicting right. There's like this emptiness inside of me. Have u had it before ? It's telling me to give up al. It's useless pretending al the time. Cry your heart out, you said to me. But I can't.

I'm sorry. It's not my fault okay. I'll fight it.
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There's a Pure Chemistry module lesson tomorrow on a first-come-first-serve basis, as well as Geography extra lesson nd Amath tuition on Friday.

Kai. Yes I'm trying.
Chener. Hey there ! Oh yes when you want to study ? I need to be free as well hahas. You can message me or something ya ? See you.

It couldn't be help.

herTORMENTED heart
11:59 PM

Back home. Met Shir this morning at about 11am at Tampines. We had a meal at the KFC, which turned out to be a bad choice. Ahahah. By noon, the place was filled with crowds that made so much noise, we couldn't concentrate on our studying, doing less than 6 questions. It was quite annoying lah ? So we packed up nd walked around the malls. From 4pm to 5.30pm, we were at Han's figuring out some questions from unit10 of Amath, when in flooded business workers, surprisingly many were (ahem) Indians. HAHAHA. We had a good laugh to ourselves, because it was so racist please ! They started blabberring I-don't-know-whats nd also about their visa credit card ! Lol. Remember the ad ? Goodness.

Rushed home, changed then trained down to Raffles to meet marmi. I waited until she came, nd my feet hurt badly. So anw. Had our facials at ModernBeauty shop. Very nice place indeed ! The exfoliation part was rather enjoyable, including the face mask nd the massage as well, but when it comes to squeezing of the blackheads, I could curse out loud ! It hurt so bad I teared ? Lol. As the saying goes, "It pays a price". Marmi signed me up for another 5 more facials for packaging of 159bucks (omfg waste of money), which I'd be able to go back anytime in the 2 years. We'll see how it goes then.

Ate dinner at Lau Par Sat. Dim sums were yummy yums ! On the way while walking to the station, I saw a phantom bike (Hey kai !) lol. Hinted to marmi I want to ride on that model, because it looks majestic. Guess what she said ? She said it wasn't nice, nd she pointed to the honda wave nd told me that the honda one was much better. Oh my tiann ah. Took the train back home, my mood swinged at night again. Because I heard things I didn't want to know. Or I received even the slightest comment which pulls me down. Fuck it lah. I know I'm sensitive at times.

Natalie why do you still smile, joke nd laugh, when you know you're unhappy ? I don't know myself either. Maybe I'm too tired of showing the down side of me al the time.

Puff. Then back to books tomorrow again.

Kai. Hahahs, thnks lao shi !
Charzzy. Thnks, appreciate it.
Beefy. Are you sure ? Oh my. Well, you stay happy too ! See you soon (:
Agnes. Ahahah yeah I suppose so.

herTORMENTED heart
11:58 PM

Hey al. Please refer back to the previous entry if you haven't read your message that I've left for you guys !

Slept in today until it was afternoon. Oh my tiann. Started preparing lunch for sister nd me, ate alot alot of food. Lol. Then back to the laptop to listen to music. Cindy asked to meet out in the evening for chicken rice dinner at Tampines mall. Then had bubble tea at Pasir Ris. We walked in circles that we got bored of everything from both places. See lah ! So gayy. Resulting in silly videocam-whoring ? Actually not so, it was simply retarhdedness. HAHA.

Guanwei nd Hanwen met us later at about 10.45pm (on time than the previous occasion !) nd it started to drizzle. I like black btw. Ehehehheh. Da ge's bike actually looks nicer, with the wordings 'racing aprilia' (sp?) too, lol. I just noticed. But his got more CO gas produced, haha ! Got a free ride home after that, it was quite nice. There was even music hahah. Thnks alot ya !

Still, the best is another type of two-wheel, the bicycle. Also known as the bike, it is cheaper, lighter, nd environmentally-friendly. No harmful gas is given off by the bike. You can re-pump air at any petrol kiosk without even paying, nd no police would catch you speeding. You can do a marathon by riding all over Singapore nd keeping fit. Moreover, damage done to the bike can be mended easily. Lol. Okay enough of my nonsense.

That was how my day ended lah ? So much time spent NOT studying. Heart pain liao arh. Ahahahahs. Sort of an unlucky day huh. First thing, hope the small-small-one get well soon ! The accident was kind of sudden. Also, we'll pray for the crocodile hunter, Steve Irwin, who died on this day as well. Saddening news.

Alright. Going to be meeting Shir in the morning. Maybe Cindy in the afternoon ? Amath nd Biology I pray. Then down to marmi's office to meet her in the evening.

Charmaine. Next time I'll buy one for you ! Flavour ?
Kai. Okay. Ahahs, nope I'm not rich though I eat like a pig. Nd most imptly, I'm no asshole ! Rarrh.
Agnes. Hahah ! We've haven't taken pics tgt yanno.

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Silly videos are up ! Nd they are super super ugly side of me. Hahahah. Viewable from the link located at the left.
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herTORMENTED heart
11:44 PM

Yesterday was out at town for few hours to celebrate Cindy's birthday with Melle nd Denyse. Made the card in the morning. Yawns. First was Swensen's little firehouse, then to Fareast shopping nd walking. Lol.

Left at about 4.30pm to train back, change my dressing then off to church for mass. Dad nd sister was going as well, so I had a car ride there. Met up with Jaslyn nd Chu wen as usual. My shoes were wayy off please. School shoes. I looked very silly. Sent them off at Tampines after mass, then took bus back to have dinner with family.

This was when the mess started. We had a very bad family situation. Sister wanted to go home saying that she don't want to waste time. Nd she even report things I did, getting me into trouble. Then marmi started to question me nd all with the naggings. Sister nd her fucking foul mouth. She nd her fucking bad attitude these days. Spouted some insensitive words that pricked me (nd who knows, hurts marmi more). The worst was : "In the first place, you shouldn't have gave birth to us what." WTF lah ? I was shocked. I have never ever thought of saying that before. How could she ?

How could you actually say this without thinking ? It was so horrible yanno. If I could, I would slap you straight at that moment. Have you ever thought of what marmi might feel ? Cry all you want. I don't even know why you cried when you started it all. Sometimes I don't really like this family because everything isn't what I see a family should be.

So yesterday was quite tense. Had tuition this morning, after which Syy nd I went to share noodles. I was complaining to her all the while. Ahah. Met up with Jaslyn again at Tampines then we trained down to Bugis. From there, Syy went off with Charmaine so we were on seperate ways. Walked around Parco nd Bugis Street. Then settled down in the BugisCafe for muffins nd studying. In the end, we couldn't stand it nd started walking around again lol. Bought new belts for ourselves ! The price was quite reasonable, nd they're so oriental-like. Right, Jaslyn ? Hahahahs. Let's forget about the other belt we saw at the same franchise stall located opposite. Rawrr.

Her seseme flavour nd my strawberry yoghurt flavour ! Had our favourite ice-cream from 7-eleven at Bedok (since blk85 was super packed) then took the bus back to Pasir Ris. Parted, then dashed my way to Sakae dinner with them. It was a yummilicious, filling meal ! The bill bombed to more than 100bucks. Lol. We even shopped at the supermarkets to get more food to store in the house. Gosh.

Wow ! 7 comments for last entry (: Here's my messages for u al then. Do leave more comments alright ! Thnks.

Kai. It's not a bicycle ! AHAHAH.
Cindy. Sure sure, no problem yeah.
Guanwei. Haha it's okay. But I won't fly ! I would go bump boink thump ! Lol.
Geraldine. Am I that scary ? Hahas. Yes, we'll be going.
Charzzy. Why you don't want cakes ? Then what would u want to eat !
Shir. Confirm can make it if I call ah ? Ahah. Please do update !

herTORMENTED heart
11:01 PM

September starts.
I did something bad. Ehehehhehs.

Less than an hour to Cindy's sweet 16 ! I actually had to run out of the washroom without her knowing, nd dash down the 2 levels of escalator, so that I could buy her a chocolate cake as well as the gerberia (sp?) flower. Hahas. I wanted to give her a surprise yanno. I hope you liked it, girlfriend ! Shir nd I have not yet settled her present though. Going to have to handmake a card to make up for tomorrow's outing perhaps.

Woke up super late this morning. Sorted out my school papers to file them up later. Then met up Cindy to do studying. Only did paper1 up to unit 4 of Emath TYS ! Gosh so slow lah. Then got a shock when marmi appeared in Whitesands Macs to eat with her friend as well. So we left soon after doing some questions. Da ge nd small-small-one (HAHAHA) came to meet us, biked to Tampines ! Thnks for the ride btw. Quite fun with the wind huh, but kind of scary, gripping difficulty. Lol. I don't like that stupid taxi driver too ! Banana mann @#^*!&%.

The chicken rice stall in the foodcourt closed too fast. Had our handmade noodles instead, yummy yums. Oh oh oh, my noodles can GROW ! I always never finish whenever I eat from that stall. Ahahah. Then we walked, came upon this playground at the open area, I got swinged. Goodness, it was a big headache please. A must try ya ! Btw, thnks also hor, da ge, for the stick haha. Went home with girlfriend after that, she said my mood changed. (Oh my tiann, I don't think so?) Can't wait for tomorrow then.

Here's a lovely quote to end my entry for today :
Misery attacked her again, so physical that she could feel it stabbing her like a knife in the heart.

It's like every single day, without knowing, there would be something that reminds me-. It's inevitably silly. I still don't get why it ended this way though. Was it me or ?

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Being Teachers' Day today, I decided to call up my favourite tuition teacher. I only made up my mind by evening, because I was quite afraid at first, wondering whether or not she'd still acknowledge me as her student, after so many months. I missed her so much. Nd I'm so very glad I called ! The mere 2 mins 28 seconds were good enough. We caught up abit, nd I could visit her sometimes whenever I'm free. Of course I'd try to find one day soon (:

Anw, just messaged Cindy. She ate her cake alr ! Ahahah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND.
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Going to update my blog templates as well as pictures. Goodnight.

Shir. Girl I've read your blog. Haha. When's our study plan then ? Asap yeah.
Charzzy. Hello ! You like cakes too ? I can buy one for you next time ! Heehee. See you alright !
Geraldine. Ahahah why do you seem like you are crying. Monster scared you ? Lol.

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